you've changed, mom.

how we used to be friends that we could talk to each other everyday, mom. since you got yourself a boyfriend, you've been neglecting me every single day. are you sure that you want to spend the rest of your lives with such a guy that could malign your own daughter? you've changed. you didn't use to be the mom i used to love most. ever since you have a boyfriend, we've been quarrelling all day. you claimed i wasn't respecting him cus whenever i see him, i wouldn't call him first but call you first. firstly, he dont even deserve my respect at all. what he does all day was just to watch tv, work, eat, sleep, thats all. have you ever wondered how i felt, how i thought? nope, you didn't. you just continue to be in your small little 'happy' world with him and left me out. you promised me that you wouldn't leave me alone. and that no matter where you go you'll bring me along. now, you cant even bother to listen to what i say. whenever i try to explain things to you, he'll always try to add oil and say bad things about me in front of you. everytime i try to talk to you, he'll definitely butt in and interupt our conversation. i remembered those times at night were the times i really enjoyed most as you would tell me about your childhood and how's your work now. every night i would also confide you into whatever sad things that happened during school. you would always lend me a shoulder and give me a pat on my forehead telling me everything's fine. what about now. saying 'im tired' is all you could gave me. yes, im tired too. im tired of having to wake up every single morning, and im tired of even trying to go to school and start pretending, showing im happy, when inside me, im not happy at all. im not trying to deprive your rights of finding your own happiness. yes, he does treat you good. but have you ever thought about me? mom. i miss the old you. the old you would never treat me like that. the old you would always encourage me to move on with life. the old you would love me like the deep ocean. what about now?

clique, im sorry if i neglected you sometimes. im sorry.

well, tomorrow's gonna be a better day. but with science and art? hah. no way. bye.