Sadly, I wont be down because of a stupid matter.

i think my brain either dont work or either cant be bothered to listen to me. i hate my stupid brain. only can think this kind of thing. cnt think of homework ah. friends ah. church ah. importantly God ah! den think this kind of thing. Stupid brain. screw you. fuck you. aiya one four words for you la brain. 'i hate you brain.' just smth simple, you also cant do. sigh. i told you i just want to forget everything or either not let me wake up the next morning right. so simple also cannot do. what a useless brain you are. god ah please cast some spell on my brain and let it stop working, which means i die la. or either you take some memory outta my brain.

OR YOU HELP ME LA. I GOT CAR ACCIDENT. DEN I WONT REMEMBER ANYTHING.

sigh im really desperate to just forget that thing. sigh. cant god you help me? I dont need my whole memory to be lost. cus some are happy ones. let me forget those unhappy ones, please. ohyeah. tmrw i wna go to church like i've never been hurt before. god please help me. i wna worship you. i love you god. please help me. i really need help. whatever requests i asked when i was ignorant, please dont care it. im tired already. i think this is what you meant for what i wished, god.

i dont wanna think of anything anymore. god let me die, or cease the pain. :)