MERRY CHRISTMAS!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS! (L)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDPA! (L) i miss you :( alot. I wish i can see your smile, hear your laughter again. :(

one year ago on Christmas eve,

Grandpa was in the ICU, lying on the bed, unconsious. everyone had prepared that he would leave us soon. but after that he didn't leave that night, he survived, he continued living.
but what i see on his face, every moment he breathe. i know he felt tired of living. he was in pain, the pain was torturing him. but one thing i can see from his eyes, he wanted to continue living. he wanted to continue to see his 3 grandchildren, 2sons, 1wife. i knew he wanted to. it hurt me to see him like tht. i didn't wanted him to suffer like tht. i knew he had a chance to live. i knew he loved us. i knew he wanted to continue living every day of his life, blissfully.
On the day before he left this world, stopped his last breathe, see the world, he was fine. he was even able to turn around and hug his bolster. Everyone thought he was fine, including me. until sunday, 11thJanuary, when i was at church. i had a call from dad. He told me that, 'Regina, your grandpa has passed away at 10plus in the morning.' my heart sanked. i didn't know dad wanted to tell me about tht. i thought he wanted to tell me tht grandpa was feeling better. I even asked him how's grandpa before he broke the news to me.
I dropped the phone, cried and told rachel and jingyi. they comforted me...

Grandpa, you left me for 348 days. I really hope to see you again. I really hope to hear your laughter, see your smile, eat the things you used to cook for me. Grandpa, i love you. I really miss you alot. I want you to be back. Please let me see you again. I really do miss you.

Happy Birthday Grandpa, I miss you alot. :(