so happy i could die.

2010-05-17T21:17:00.002+08:00

RELINK!
RELINK!
RELINK!

dont want relink also can la hehe! :) might come back to blogger! who knows? :D

A smile is a laugh that bursts.

2010-05-17T19:28:00.002+08:00

Hellohellohellohello. Today was the slackest day in school man. Didn't do any homework. Didn't use textbook. Didn't have to think. Slept most during class today. & Mr Ng showed us a super funny series. Today's fun. After school, went to hub to watch iron man with Danielle. It was awesome. Yeah okay tomorrow's there's no school. Bye.

xxx

2010-05-16T22:00:00.003+08:00

Saturday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEONGSOON AND JINGYI! :)
Well Saturday's fun fun fun fun fun fun. heeeeeee. Aw why didn't Yuling and the rest go ): okay nevermind there's always a next time. hee. okay morning, danielle came my house first. then met corliss at hub with yeongsoon, yulong, junhui, kenny, weileong. bought some stuffs and went to Sentosa. Yeongsoon and Yulong went to rent canoe lol. then me and corliss poured water on junhui and weileong. danielle couldn't play with water cus her parents dont allow ): after that, corliss and me became wet. lol. bailu and zhaoyi came after that and danielle made a super super nice pattern on the sand. it's a flower right? okay hm. me and danielle went earlier to vivo. wanted to watch movie but in the end didn't because not enough time ): then met with ys they all to have dinner :) super nice!!!!!! then mom fetched me and dan home :)

and today,
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY BRATHERRRRRRRRRRRR.

you're finally finally 21 years old. grow up pleaseeee. dont always make us worry about you. okay la. byebye~

Kbox!

2010-05-14T23:39:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER YAY! Science was like shit la today lol. sure fail. after school went to hub with Danielle and Corliss heh. Ate Popeyes for breakfast cum lunch. then walk around hub. after that went to kbox. :)

okay bye:)

epic fail.

2010-05-13T19:27:00.002+08:00

Haha. Yeah once again i lost my wallet. Not planning to tell mom. If not later she scold haha. okay gonna do the ezlink card myself. blahblahblah. after school studied at school awhile then went to popeyes at amk. lost my wallet in the bus. -.- lol. okay the uncle lied to me say 3-4hours the bus will come back. aiya wait till the bus come back other ppl got le la. waste time still ask me give my number and give me the clementi's number -.- waste time lol! so didn't have lunch today.

wow. science's tml. band's starting soon. exams are over so soon. wow.

you'll see a side of love you've never known.

2010-05-12T21:30:00.002+08:00

School -> Hub -> ThomsonPlaza -> Home.

Chinese Paper 3 was crap la, lol. i fell asleep the second time when they replayed the whole passage. so idiot please make us go school for 45 minutes and then go home. yay tomorrow's maths again algebra algebra algebra! science on friday..................... ):

nevermind look on the bright side, after friday i'll be free!!! and friday gng out with corliss :) heeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeee! okay byebye lol.

The great depression over!

2010-05-11T16:31:00.002+08:00

History literally killed my brain cells. Super glad it's over alr.

Tomorrow, Chinese listening. Thursday, Maths Paper 1. Friday, Killer science. & I'm free! :D
detention-ed for 1 hour after school, well was late for school. okay thats all. bye.

CHARLIE'S SIX PENCE.

2010-05-10T19:19:00.002+08:00

literature today. argh why i wrote six pennys instead of six pence?! AND IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE GRANDPA GEORGE AND I WROTE GRANDMA JOSEPHINE. argh lost 4 marks ): haha. argh well over liao, heck care.

let's all study for the great depression, people. history tml. well what can i say. i hate tunku LOL. for treating singapore like this. argh sad. alright i'm getting crazy.

alright replying tags.

Tags Replies
STALKER :D : hey stalkie imy! :)
Corliss!: thanks ten-mate laopo hee :)
Emotionless Yamazuki: lol.
jin feng: ty.
YULING(:: hey thanks :D
ISABELLE: :)
...: no it's 11.12.
Huijuan: hey darling sorry i didnt go ):
._.Yamazuki._.: what. lol
waylon: thanks!
Itz 11: hah. yeah
Zhiqi: thanks :)
Peeks-a-boo!!!: haha. :)

EH NABEH. YOU NOT HAPPY WITH US ISIT. ONE BOY SIA. SAY WE GIRLS ARE VERY COMPLICATING YOU EH. YOU OWNSELF MOODSWING CAN WE CANNOT. WAHLAO YOU THINK YOU VERY BIG? SO WHAT IF I'M CLOSER TO ZHIQI THAN YOU. AND OBVIOUSLY I WILL BE CLOSER CUS I'M IN THE SAME CLASS AS HER FOR 2 YEARS. AND YOU'RE A BOY ACTING LIKE SOME WHORE. WTF YOU WANT SIA SERIOUSLY. ZHIQI ISN'T ACTING LIKE ME OKAY. IM ME SHES SHE. WTF YOU WANT LA SERIOUSLY. WE HAD ENOUGH LIAO LA. YOU NOT HAPPY JUST FUCK OFF LA.

so baby know for sure, that i'll never let you go.

2010-05-07T22:14:00.002+08:00

Maths Paper today. Well what can I say.. Question 6 & 7 SUCKED. Sec 1 work. All forgotten lmao. Okay.. After school went thomson plaza with dan, qi. studied history.

Byeeeeeeeee.

I LOVE ALGEBRA.

2010-05-06T19:39:00.000+08:00

okay. random title LOL. Jacqueline smsed me to ask me how i was doing cus she saw my blog lol. hiiiiiiiii i miss you! okay 2 subjects down like finally. chinese cmi, english still okay, tml's maths. my favourite ah. but sure alot of careless mistakes. okay off to study and print science notes, byebye~

fml.

2010-05-05T20:46:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA. FIRST PAPER TODAY. nothing much to say about it.

sometimes i just feel like dying and leave this world. there's no point for me to live anyway. i'm tired of making choices and everything. it's tired enough for me to suffer all these in pure silence and nobody understands. it's enough for me alr. i want to meet my grandpa. :( i'm tired i'm tired i'm tired.

Tags Replies
Somebody: Sorry.
Passer-by: oh?
Passer by: hate hate la? my fucking problem ah.
Emotionless Yamazuki: LOL
Zhiqi: hahaha. dont care them the passerbys, fucking lame only please.
Passer-by: hahahaha.
Zhiqi: I only know the somebody, the rest of the fucking passerbys all i dont know, LOL.
Emotionless Yamazuki: IP no use alr. Let them spam all they want. I heck care alr.
Zhiqi: Ofcus.
Passer-by: lol?
Emotionless Yamazuki: lol.

ultimate happy box!

2010-05-02T17:06:00.002+08:00

church today. mom bought another 2 super cute small hamsters. super cuteeeeeeee! but i still love hammy:) wanted to study with danielle at bishan but cancelled cus i was too tired plus too late le. so tml then study. dunno at where though. haha. :) im happy today cus of two lil hammies woohoo! :D

wont be emo liao yay.

Tags Replies
Emotionless Yamazuki: yo idiot!
SJQ: ps x:
Emotionless Yamazuki: wahlao dont extraaa here la!
Zhiying: ^^
Emotionless Yamazuki: EXTRA!
GLADYS<3: HAHA NO PROBLM YI XUAN XINGAN:)
Somebody: :)
Emotionless Yamazuki: EXTRA LAMESHIT! :P
jinfeng: thanks :)
Clara: thanks:)
JOANNE: SWEETHEART! ^^ thanks! you too! :D

Study date.

2010-05-01T19:26:00.001+08:00

firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GLADYS TAN YI XUAN! AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERRIE!

Went to ice kimo to study with danielle.
Went to thomson plaza after that.
Mom ask me to rush home, cus wanted to go out.
Reached home, mom say not going liao. wth.
Studied for about 3 hours today.

That's all. Bye.

I want to be happy, but I cant.

2010-04-30T18:52:00.002+08:00

I studied Algebra from after school till 5. I'm starting to love algebra. Isn't that a good thing?

I miss those time when we used to be, although there's no way we can be like last time anymore. I just want to be happy. God will you grant me this wish ):

Today is the last history with Mr Lim. Sure miss him de. Wondaful teacher.
tomorrow studying with Danielle @ Ice Kimo. :) I wanna be happy. ):

不作你的朋友

2010-04-29T20:15:00.004+08:00

2.4 today, I'm quite happy. Thankew alot Chuanwei for pacing me and got 15.14 super proud weee. left standing broad jump and I can get gold liao.

Maths test yesterday wasn't as superawesome because somehow my memory loss and my whole mind was like about..... argh forget it. I'm sure to fail maths again. I'm such a failure. lol. anyway today's mr ng's birthday well happy birthday uh. lol. i'm your worst student ever man, seriously. dont listen in class, daydreaming, playing, being noisy. no wonder teachers hate me so much LOL.

history test results got back. just passed. stupid me forgotten to include points. argh whatever. no point in studying anyway. i just suck at studying. regina sucker sucker sucker sucker.

straight to the point: after school - kfc with py, d, zq - studied maths - homed.

Tags Replies
STALKER: haha.
V♥: hey sweetie thanks :)
Stranger: I'm fine thanks haha, my oral sure fail one, and dont worry it's not your fault.
FAYE: thanks babe.

I just miss how the way you used to message me. It takes time to forget. dont worry I'll never be happy again, unless I'm with my friends. Thanks Danielle for being with me always. Loveyou.

ohyeah streaming talk motivated me to study hard. promised mommy I'll be happy. I'm trying to mom. :/

SUCKFUCK.

2010-04-27T18:55:00.008+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FU YULONG PAPA!

Oral was a total failure today. Sometimes I just wonder. How the shit am I going to study for exams? Ohwell I admit it I'm not smart and I'm just super jealous of those people that were born smart. Sometimes I dont even wanna study. I think I'm having too much stress lately. I cant concentrate on studying. I'm so afraid that I wouldn't do well in streaming and guess what? I regretted not listening in class. Oh God please help me. Let my mind be clear of everything and prepare for exams. Exams are on next Wednesday. I'm stressed. I dont like it.

Hopefully tomorrow's streaming talk will be better. Thanks Zhiqi for the super duper awesome post on your private blog, love you;)

OHYEAH IT'S SO AWESOME MATHS TEST TOMORROW AGAIN.

you can see my brown eyes ever since you said goodbye.

2010-04-26T19:42:00.005+08:00

Hello music test was super lame today. During the test me and Danielle kept laughing at the music and plus the questions were like...... damn stupid lol. during chinese lessons kept talking to zhiqi, heh. and i fell asleep. ermmmmmm? newscast during eng lessons again. fooled around with Danielle heh heh heh. 'we are the world' ~ today ate alot during class man, ate plenty sweets, two lollipops, and some of yeongsoon's tibits heh heh. after schl kfc with Danielle and Zhiqi. Started talking about people and the times in Secondary One. I'm so disgusted by my actions in Sec1. ew. Sorry to those people that I've treated badly during Sec1 ):

okay bye. :) tomorrow's going to be a better day, loves :)

ZHIQI & DANIELLE LOL AT BLOGSONG :) we are the world~

ohyeah, oral tomorrow, streaming talk on wednesday, exams next wed, how nice life could be.

Loves

2010-04-25T21:18:00.002+08:00

Hello people, me going to write dedications for those sweeet people that have been here with me all these while.

KimberleyTan
Hello Bestfriend, how have you been in CCHY? I miss you alot alot alot. It's been 3 years since I knew you. Me remember when you pour milo at my head heeheehee. Thanks for being here for me all these while, even when we're in different school. We don't always sms each other because you're just so lazy to sms! :@! Okay I don't blame you for that because it's your stupid keypad that always fails. :) We don't always talk on the phone, and you seldom use the computer because your mom don't allow you to use the computer. Yeah thats so sad right I know I know. Well dearest, thanks for being here all the while. I really appreciate all those little sweet things you do for me. You know all my secrets and you understand me well. You never fail to make me laugh at your silly jokes and when I'm feeling moody and when I vent all my anger on you, you don't mind them. Thanks for being there. I love you. :)

DanielleChua
Hello bird, thanks for being such a nice bird okay. I'll always remember what we used to quarrel over last year, all those stupid silly little things. You should know them huh. :) It's crazy how we can even quarrel through smses. And everytime you leave me speechless la okay. :x Okay. It's only these year when we became closer. Although we still have our little mad quarrels this year, okay we're still quite immature la :x, all these only makes our friendship closer. Thanks for everything you did, thanks for the hug during NAPFA on Friday, it really cheered me up alot. You're the one that knows alot of things about me too. :) Thanks for being such a great friend who stands by me always. Thanks for the sweet sms you sent that time when I told you about _. Thanks for showing care and thanks for forgiving the silly stupid things I do. Thanks alot bestmate. You're the best man :)

NgZhiqi
Hello Cutie, remember how we used to talk about the people in our class last year? Hahahaha we mostly talked about the girls because the boys don't seem to have any problems. Remember? We were actually already very close last year but you were closer with Sharon & the rest last year. It's only this year when you came recess with us. And all your silly jokes. And about taptap, 'FaFaFa' and 'Get Crazy' remember? I remembered we used to sing songs and you'll always tell me about your problems in school and the rest. :) Thanks for being such a goodfriend Zhiqi, thanks for listening to all my rants. Thanks for concerning me. And I'm sorry if I sometimes left you out during recess sweetie. Thanks for being by my side. Loves.

IsabelleChia
Hello Retard, it's so surprising why I cant be mad at you. Everytime when I see your retarded face, I'll laugh. You're always so silly and sweet and funny. And you're always telling me about kpop! It's just that you're always giving that face when you're down and you're always always showing the black face. Me no like it okay. Cannot get angry so easily. Remember what I told you, It's our last year together because we wont know what class we'll go to next year, treasure this time when we spend together okay. :) Loves.

KokYuling
Hello Lovelove, I'll always remember my first impression of you. Last time we were so lame, I don't like you, you don't like me. Hahahaha, thanks for being such a nice friend. And sorry for all the things I said about you. I'm sorry. Although this year we had many conflicts, we're still so close together. Thanks for being there when I'm sad. Thanks for being so nice to me always. Thanks for all your care. Loveyou :)

LeckYingFaye
Hello Babe, I remember last time I kept asking you who you liked better - Me or Danielle. Okay I was so lame then but it was way back. Thanks for being there and I really enjoyed the times being with you. :) Although we're not so close, thanks for being such a greaaaaaaat babe. I love your jokes and everything. :)

TeoYixuan
Hello Stalker, HAHAAHHAHA. I always remember how I laugh at your stupidity and how I always say you're lousy, not friendly. Because in ATS when I smiled at you, you didn't smile back! You're so mean okay cheat my feelings. I hate you :@! Nah I love you la okay. Thanks for making me laugh always. And thanks for always diaoing me okay -.- ! Stop stalking me stalker, I will shy one. AND THANK YOU LA. Say when I sing the mirror will break. Infact, the mirror loves my singing so much that it melts. (okay exaggerating) thanks stalker, :)

SalitaSucharitvanitwong
Hello honey, you're always insulting me. But always making me laugh. ACTION MAMA REMEMBER? Hehe Sec 1 oi! :) You always think I purposely skip band one leh you. Anyway I love you honey. Thanks for being there for me all the while. You're such a nice friend, such a funny one too. I know you love me alot alot alot alot okay. I'm your bestfriend! (like real) Thanks honey for everything, love you :)

SongJianqiao
Hello Chatmate papa! HAHAHA you're always listening to what I say lor. You're super funny and I'm so glad you're my friend. One thing I hate about you. YOU ARE SO TALL. Make me feel so short :@! Anyway thankyou for listening all those stupid things I say about those teachers! And thanks for the two lollipops tomorrow, I'm waiting for it okay. BETTER DONT EAT IT. Must save for me LOL. Okay thanks anyway. :)

FuYulong
Hello FuYulong Papa you're always bullying me. I hate you to the max man for pinching my cheeks so hard. Don't always quarrel with Mama okay. Must love her and must last long with her okay goodboy. Stop bullying me also okay. Goodboy! Happy advanced birthday also! :) Buy me lollipop!

Okay there's many more but I'm just writing those that I'm closer with. Toodles :)

we are the world.

2010-04-25T14:28:00.003+08:00

didn't attend church today. morning went to see doc and it turned out to be skin infection like what i've expected. went to cousin's house as mom went to her church last minute, did maths assessment for like 4 hours? and i felt so so so so guai today, lol. mom gave me advice yesterday night, love you mom;) thanks for always being there for me. smsed zhiqi from morning till now heh. okay cheerup zhiqi. loves.

If you cannot be a pencil to write anyone's happiness, then try at least to be a nice eraser to remove someone's sadness.

2010-04-24T21:40:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling down again. I need some advice badly ): Danielle, Zhiqi, Isabelle, Yuling, Faye, whoever. I need advice. I dont like it whenever I feel like that.

Life's always like a battlefield, sometimes when you cant take it anymore, you'll die in that battle. And for people like me, I wouldn't want to give up till the last second, but sometimes I wouldn't have a choice whether to give up or not although there is always a second chance for us. I don't like to be sad but I have to be one whenever I think of those problems stacking one by one in my heart. Whenever I try to solve the problems, it just hurts me further more. I don't like it that way. Or rather I don't like myself being that way. I just want the happy Regina back. The normal me back. I just want to clear the problems stacking in my heart slowly and in a happy way, not a sad way.

NAPFA!

2010-04-23T21:06:00.002+08:00

YAY! Napfa is finally over girls guys fellow classmates yippeeee. happy like shit! :) Got 4As and 1D. obviously ppl should know for me the 'D' would be stupid standing broad jump right-.- argh damn it me want get gold but cus of sbj and 2.4 cant ): nvm imma work hard on both on it! ^^ okay sit and reach was super cool to the max thanks isabelle chia yu si okay! for pushing me while we warm up and i was able to stretch to 45cm! :) okay inclined pullup 17 and situps 35 and shuttlerun 11seconds hohoho happy like shit!

ohyeah did i mention history test was okay today? okay nah i didn't mention it, so history was fine today. think i'll pass thanks god! wooohooo! me super hyper today unlike the previous day when i was thinking, hehe thanks bestmate danielle for making me happy :)

gonna study hard for upcoming exams to prove you this stupid teacher that me can study without your teaching! :) bye people!

I'm tired of things back to square one.

2010-04-23T06:40:00.001+08:00

Hi, using itouch to blog again, hm. 2.4 today, improved by 15seconds. LOL. Science test was super hard, someone said I didn't study hard, but i did lor. -.- okay after schl waited for Danielle then went to do smth with her and Yuling and Zhiqi and Amanda and Corliss. Hm okay alr after confrontation :) went to see the boys napfa after that. Desmond run until super funny lol. Okay tml's history test! Jiayou 2D

MOLECULES.

2010-04-21T21:31:00.002+08:00

okay ignore the previous post, i was feeling down. okay la, imma study hard for tests and SA1. but i cant get all these science inside my head la please. zzzzzzzz. i hate science.

!@#$$%^$^&%#@%*#@@(%*$#^&#!

i'm just bored. but i'm alr a good girl for studying two days without stopping and finish my maths homework in class today. :D

anyway, thanks to kim, dan, clara, zhiqi, and isabelle that cheered me up. love you guys:)

I totally give up.

2010-04-21T17:36:00.003+08:00

I CANT STUDY. x1234567890987654321.

because I've something stupid running through my mind, and i know i shouldn't think of it anymore. gosh i just feel like crying suddenly LOL. okay la. i've been acting strong, so i should continue. God, help me please.

!@#$%^&*^#@$@^@!

:)

2010-04-20T17:58:00.001+08:00

Tests tests tests tests. Agh I know I'll fail maths test. It's useless of me trying to study very hard and yet when I open the textbook, trying to do the work and whole mind blank. Same for today's maths test. Mind went blank. Ahh seriously when can I get everything into my head?

After this post, I don't think I'll be posting until after exams since I wanna study lol. Napfa this Friday. Thinking of standing broad jump make me dread napfas.

Today is a sucky day. It isn't fun lie yesterday. Don't really feel happy today. Bye.

honeybabee

2010-04-18T17:30:00.004+08:00

hm i'm lazy to explain what happened. so uh....

TAGS REPLIES
YULING(: - hi love, i know you miss me alot hehehhehehehehehe. miss you. *ignores isabelle*
KWANTYNG: hihi! ^^
ISABELLE: :P dont jealous. it's our way of deesiao-ing you :D
YULING(: - she dont want ma :p
wss: hahaha.
LYNN!<3: class="pn_std">♥: hey sweetypie, saw you just now :)
SJQ: heh, thanks. :)
JOLin: yo thanks snowflakeee.
STALKER: im bored too ): miss me not miss me? :p

I miss Aitong, I miss 6F, I miss Kimberley, I miss Huishan, I miss Clique, I miss everything.

You know that I love you boy, hot like Mexico rejoice

2010-04-17T22:10:00.001+08:00

Hahaha I'm at grandma's house stealing wifi from downtown. K bye :)

They've got nothin' on you, baby.

2010-04-16T15:28:00.004+08:00

Didn't go to school today, missed maths test, missed history, missed literature lessons. slept for the entire day at home cus i wasn't feeling well. missed school. missed belle. missed yuling. missed zhiqi. missed salita. missed everyone okay.

okay bye.

p/s: isabelle dunwan me go back schl. so i shall skip school again! :@

BOOMBOOMSHAKESHAKEDROP.

2010-04-13T20:57:00.004+08:00

due to my procrastination, i've been neglecting my blog.

i'll refrain from using vulgarities in this post.

today's lessons were alright, i'm super angry today, i don't know why but i cant control my emotions today. isabelle and danielle chua stole my clip today, making me run around the canteen holding my fringe. okay after recess was chinese and got tingxie. zhiqi and i got the answers from textbook and cher didnt realise :) after chinese i couldn't take it anymore, started throwing my bag and my pencilcase on the table, lol. this is the first time after many years since i've been so angry. i felt so stupid when i remembered how i treated you in the past, i cant believe that when danielle and the rest know about your true colours, i still ignorantly go and talk to you, thinking that you were pitiful, thinking that you've changed. hah, in the end danielle they all angry with me, because of you. i didn't care. because i thought you would change. in the end? you became friends with danielle and the rest again, leaving me alone. it's alright, whats more you told them all the bad things about me, and the bad things about them to me. haaaaaaa. yesyesyes, after that i forgived you once again.

NOW, once again, you're trying to sow discord between the both of us. yeahyeah cry all you want, gain all the sympathy la, lol. you think i care about you? i'm super sick and tired of your 'sorrys' and your empty promises saying that you wont be like that/you're not like that anymore. HAHAHAHA. STUPID PROMISES PLEASE. use some new ones in the future.

p/s: i do admit about the things you told her, is my fault yeah. you did agree too, and promised to keep it a secret. did you?

ohyeah after these projects i'll stop doing anything with you. you do your own thing, i'll do my own thing, everyone happy. just shut your mouth till the end of the year. maybe i'll forgive you once more again this time, who knows, but i'll never trust you again.

I dont want to embarrass you by saying your name, because i dont want you to lose your face. only those that knew what actually happen will know it. so please stop pretending that you care la, it's disgusting okay. *winks*

okay thats it. i cant believe i typed one super long post for you.

Tags Replies
jinfeng: thanks.
Zhiqi: :)
ISABELLE: ew never.
STALKER: good. okay will relink :)
V♥: :)
ISABELLE: me is here me is here!
-.-: LOL?
LYNN!<3: thanks :)
YULING(:: yup. :)
sherrie: youtube :)

FAILBOOK.

2010-04-10T15:17:00.004+08:00

Hihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihi it's saturday afternoon and i'm bored at home. awww. luckily isabelle entertained me with failbook.com hehheh. super funny :D

HAHAHAH ISABELLE CHIA IS SO RETARDED + FUNNY. LOVE! :D

mighty to save.

2010-04-10T13:45:00.003+08:00

It's been 4 days since I last blogged. Wow. Record. Lol. Okay just summarize everything.

7 April 2010

Stayed back with C & YL to do IPW.
Went to eat macs first before going back to school.
School Library didn't open -.-
Begged some teacher to let us go com lab to do research.
Finished and left com lab.
C went home, me and YL go find yixuan and the rest.
Waited for Jolin to finish her NYAA.
Homed.

8 April 2010

2.4.
Stayed back after school for D&T.
Zhiqi waited for me.
Went to hub after that.
Homed.

9 April 2010

SPORTS DAY.
walked for 3 rounds around yck stadium with dan's bag.
After that started talking to dan.
And cheering for griffin, plus 2D.
Cheered for Isabelle too! :)
2D got second, finally 2D won something.
Super happy:)
pepper lunch with C & YL.
Dan, faye came too.
Kbox with C & YL after that.
Homed. :)

2D GOT SECOND FOR INTER-CLASS WEEEEEEEE :D

I missed those times when we were supposed to be.

2010-04-06T20:25:00.001+08:00

Hi earthlings, I'm super tired today. D&T was okay today, a pity we don't have enough time to finish everything. English was boring. Played with joevina's itouch during Character Education. Well, I guess I won't be touching the computer for quite long. Lol. Bye.

when i look at you.

2010-04-05T19:20:00.002+08:00

Let me just summarize what happened today alright.

Isabelle Chia didn't come to school ): Get well soon retard, i miss you.
News cast was super fun today. :)
I did my maths homework! Feel so guai :p
Went to pepper lunch there to eat with danielle and zhiqi.
Went to thomson plaza with danielle.
Bought pens LOL.
She came my house to take somemore money, cus not enough money.
Then went back to thomson plaza
Reached home, and she went home.
Changed blogsong. Both me and danielle love this song. :)

okay bye. i'm so tired.

:)

2010-04-03T12:31:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANJIA :D

so many people's birthday are on april. hehe.
im belly bored at home. and im quite excited for tml's church, yeah hopefully you wouldn't go because seeing you makes my mood bad. okay enough of this :) goodbye ! ^^

2010-04-02T18:36:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Huijuan & Howard. :)

happy birthday girl :)

2010-04-01T21:08:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday Isabelle, i love you!

speech day today, normal la, dont want to explain more. after speech's day, met with belle and went to hub, same bus as ahem. *danielle i know you very happy uh* had mos burger for lunch, and went to kbox, i think we stayed inside for 3 hours, singing singing singing. hypered with belle and dan. belle's friend came:) after that pei danielle go eat porridge. lol. and guess what, when we're walking back to hub, saw ahem again. danielle kept laughing la please LOL. came to grandma's house and zzzzzz i saw bro taking money from grandma again. she dont even have enough money to spend alr, then still. -.-

anw happy birthday to isabelle again! hope you like the card:) tho it's too plain. :/

tomorrow is huijuan and howard's birthday. :)

p/s: i know you're very happy today danielle, so am i :D

Catch a bad chick by her toe.

2010-03-31T20:11:00.003+08:00

lit remedial after sch today, and i didn't listen at all since i've read that book like more than 20 times until i can memorise alr. isabelle was practically daydreaming ya... okay band was fine today, just very diulian, cus keep playing wrong, somemore with sec1s, diulian la. :/

tomorrow's speech day and i'm going with danielle, sharon, jiahui, huiqi, they all, lol.

Yoohooo!~

2010-03-30T21:52:00.001+08:00

Hey Isabelle, two more days, love you. Okay hmm 1/3 of the periods in class i was sleeping, so nothing to really talk about yeah. hm okay band today, LOL. Ryan super funny I tell you, and I accidentally hit him then his drum drop. Sorry! Didn't do it on purpose de. Okay that's all for today, gonna have a good night's rest today, I don't wanna fall asleep in class anymore :)

REN GUANG XI REN GUANG XI 任光唏任光唏！

2010-03-29T19:41:00.002+08:00

First day of school after the camp. woots, had fun ho. okay had history remedial after school and everyone was like rushing to go home. everyone in class were like shouting: 'quiet la! let mr lim quickly teach finish then can go home le'

after remedial kfc-ed with jolin and i bought a black notebook. after when i reached home, went down to print photos but then when i started to do the book, i dunno what to do :( nvm, i got my other ways to do it :)

anyway, i love autumn's concerto hehe. RGX RGX RGX! :D and xiaole!

okay anyway isabelle i havent got a idea on what im going to do for your birthday, so pleasepleaseplease be patient okay! <3

My greatest love is you.

2010-03-28T21:03:00.001+08:00

Hi ;) church was okay today. Heh. This Friday's good Friday and Sunday's Easter day. Going out after church with churchmates this Sunday, not today la duh. Okay. Today my hearing got problem, when Stacey said the guy i liked, I hear it as green chilli. Maybe cus i'm too tired. Ohwell, I'm so glad you weren't at church today, if not I have to pretend to like you, I don't feel like hating you, but you leave me no choice. thanks for being so fake all the while yeah. Hahaha all you cared about was huijuan, jingyi they all. I'm so happy you didn't go today (sorry god)

Dan came my house yeah hehe. 'studied'. I can't be bothered to learn tingxie anymore. I can't seem to squeeze the chinese words into my brains. Argh well. Sorry belle, i'm not gonna care bout you and zhiqi anymore. I'll just leave the matter to you two, whether you all make up or what, I'll just sit by the fence and not care anything. Morever it's between you and her, I shouldn't care so much.

Okay this is such a wordy post, bye!

Sunshine of my life.

2010-03-28T09:35:00.001+08:00

Hi. I'm in church now. Somehow, I feel very lost in church. It just makes me feel that I don't even belong here. Yes. I know I love God. But I don't feel like going to church. I don't know why. I've been rather cold to churchmates lately, and giving them attitude. I didn't mean it, but i don't know what's wrong with me. Sorry God, I'm not a good child of yours.

):

2010-03-27T17:56:00.003+08:00

okay, suddenly i dont know what to blog about today, so i shall keep this a simple post.
went to j8 with buddy and bought a plain but special mug, it's her father's birthday, after, went to bubble tea there and i bought cake for daddy since it's his advanced birthday. went to dad's house and passed him the cake, went down and designed the mug. we spent 2 hours doing that, i think. okay she reached home now and she told me her dad used it immediately. happy :)

now i dont know what to say. i dont know if you're reading this post isabelle, i really hope you do read this though. i dont know if you're angry with me for persuading you to forgive zhiqi, i dont hope you're angry, obviously. because you know i really treasure our friendship. i dont wish to let this kind of things affect and break this friendship. you're a great friend belle. when i quarrel with my mom, you cheer me up and make everything feel better. whenever i'm down, you and danielle never fails to cheer me up. you know i love you, dont you? i really dont hope this kind of things to happen to us. anyway, see you on monday. hopefully by then we'll all calm down and everything will be fine. loves.

(edited on 12.52am)
okay isabelle isn't angry thank god, okay goodnight im happy. byebye.

I'm watching you, who is always in high spirits, I'm listening.

2010-03-26T20:14:00.003+08:00

IM BACK! CAMPS OVER!

okay im quite lazy to elaborate single thing that happened to us during the camp but im super irritated by this camp. i miss sec1s camp alot la. this year's camp didn't even bond us at all with somebody that likes to control everything, yes LITERALLY EVERYTHING. and our class didn't get to play high elements and flying fox because of the stupid weather in the morning. anyway i hope after this camp 2D still stays close together. ohya. i dont really understand why we didn't win the campfire performance even though we really did a great job. call that stupid or what. im in a super bad mood after thinking all these things that happened. ew.

alright, i shall not let all these dampen my mood. will post a cheerful post tomorrow, bye.

OH IM SUPER JEALOUS OF TWINNY WHO SPENT HER 3 DAYS 2 NIGHT 'CAMP' AT HOME USING COMP AND WATCHING TV. :(

it's a good thing tears doesnt show in the rain.

2010-03-23T18:05:00.002+08:00

HELLO.

i wont be posting anymore. will go mia for 3 days, will post on friday, camp. :)
till then, love.

Just hit replay and watch my life fall apart.

2010-03-22T19:17:00.001+08:00

Awesome 2D (Y)

School was super fun today, well I slept through the whole science lesson today when we're at the science lab doing experiment and mr ng talking..... Can't blame me right. Okay I really need to thank god for letting me survive music period today tho I was caught by mr goh for sleeping. Even if nobody's sleeping, no one will be listening anw.

Okay me and Isabelle had a little drama during english period today. We were like acting in front of Danielle. Those drama like you quarrel then after that you cry.... After that me and isabelle shouted 'the end' infront of Danielle. During maths we sang happybirthday song to miss oh cus it's her birthday today. Kenny's birthday too! We sang 4 times in a row cus the boys lol. And then I was sitting on the floor when love came to hug me and we accidentally fell on the floor and we rolled. Then miss oh was like 'god I didn't know girls do things like this too' then the whole class laughed. LOL.

Okay er after schl bused to amk hub with Dan, belle, qiqi and me and Dan went to find kimberley. Kimberley's still as funny as usual. Love her love her! Danielle too! Hee okay I love 2D to the maxxxxx ~

Anw thanks angie for the gift you bought from hongkong!! (:

(K)

2010-03-21T22:21:00.001+08:00

I love you my dearest kimbleeeee! I miss you alot alot alot okay?! Heee. Had swensens for dinner today. Hee. Anyway. Today was quite a shorty day esp in the afternoon. When it reached night time it was okay alr. And I can't wait for schl tomorrow. Can't wait to see my buddy and retard and love and laopo tomorrow! Me miss them loads! Okay I miss 2D too. Hm so tml after schl gonna meet kimbleeeee yay. Finally I can pour out everything to her. Don't worry buddy I have alot of things to tell you too! Hee okay. Now's 10.20 alr. Everyone sleep well! Nights ppl! Gonna relink ppl tml. Wan an!

i dont care eh eh eh eh eh ~

2010-03-20T19:31:00.003+08:00

Hello.
Today i went to Huishan's house again. Hahahaha. hm. I made a new friend today! She's carina hehehe. Yay! Okay, i finished my heymaths homework, but alot of questions dunno how to do. Sad. Hmm. alright today isabelle's church thingy was cancelled. ): Tml is church! Should I be happy or sad? Going to eat dinner with dearestcousin and family tonight yay. okay la. thats all, byebye!

Blogging using touchy ;)

2010-03-19T23:24:00.001+08:00

Hihihi I blogged out of boredom. Finally printed the damn maths assignment from heymath.com.sg and I can promise you it's a super lousy web okay. Hmmmm now doing maths lor. Freaking hard and it has like damn 35 questions?!?! Okay hopefully I can complete it by tonight. Hm tml going out with Isabelle. I hope Danielle can go toooooo! God bless :) okay thts all byebye :)

I can't catch my breathe cause you take it away.

2010-03-19T20:07:00.003+08:00

Imma call you tonight, i will baby.

hi hi hi hi hi hi hi. i went to Huishan's house today to bake! epic fail la pleasee. her house everything also dont have de. sad hor. hm. i finished one of my history homework yay. left with one more history sbq worksheet, heymath worksheet, and science. me and zhiqi dont want care about chinese liao. dont think anyone will be doing anw :) haaaaaaaa. had fun today ah. kthxbye! ^^

(Y) DAY.

2010-03-18T20:59:00.011+08:00

okay la i had fun today with 2Diligent (some) heeeeeeeee. YS's dog IS SOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE PLEASE. QZ's hamster toooooooooooooooooo! okay YS tried to fly a kite but.................... failed. lousy lor! after tht went to somerset and orchard with belle, dan, corliss :) had fun! :) after tht went to isabelle's house to study with dan. saw zhiqi and her friend jiaxin near starbucks at northpoint. :) and i finished english homework (Y)

Clash.

2010-03-17T17:13:00.002+08:00

~~Tml's 2D's class gathering. Not alot of ppl's going but............... should i go to class gathering or go kbox with belle, zhiqi, and dan?~~

yay tml going to class gathering with dan, belle, zhiqi (Y)

YAY IM BACK!

2010-03-17T15:06:00.003+08:00

HI IM BACK FROM CAMP. DID YOU MISS ME? I KNOW YOU ALL MISS ME LA *shy*

okay camp wasn't tht bad after all... hm. juniors are super fun to play with la. i love my juniors! :D

DayOne
lol. i super sian lor. when i went there. then after that met angie. and hm. im in group 1 with joevina. then the rest different group. okay la. you know we played the blow wind blow then angie need do forfeit. then her forfeit is to kiss on my cheeks you know. HAHAHA, but we pretend pretend only la :) disgusting. ew. hm. then got one game ah. i dunno what's the motive though, had to share a drink with my junior, lol, damn paiseh lor. after that full band, im starting to learn blue sky and sunshine (Y). hee. at night in the i&e studio with juniors. slacked there with kengyeeee :) but got practise also :) at night leh. slept beside kengyee then er. talked alot lor. super funny i tell you. :) OHYA. we had marching and alot of ppl laugh at valerie's(senior) command. super funny la.

DayTwo
er. marching for 10 minutes only. then breakfast with kengyee and juniors. the seniors had full band practise. then me and kengyee wanted to go with the sec1s but valerie ask us join main band. then they practised for 3 hours i think. i slept like nobody's business there, cus i dont know how play ah. hahahaha after that, hm, had dinner and bathed, then watched 'Drag me to hell'. second time alr. super disgusting please the show. alot of ppl shouted. hmm. then joyce asked me serena, jason, and timlin out for nightwalk. and it's super sudden, nobody knows it at all. hm. not scary at all la. lol. the most funny part is when sheena and mandy want to scare us. jason scare them. then they never scare us but they kena scare. super funny :)

DayThree
Breakfast, sectionals, and after that 11plus played catching with some of the sec1s; felicia, teri, ryan, edmund, timlin, all these la. with kengyee also. heeeee. super fun, we got strategy one okay. er. then had pizza. after that leh. went to music room and then watched the pictures the seniors took. alot of unglams lo. esp joevina one. alot. LOL. hm. after that did our group cheer and our group won (Y) bus-ed home with serena and here i am :D

AND I WANNA WISH MY LOVELOVE, KOKYULING*PUIPUI* HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ♥ I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU LOTS! :D

hm. going to study with danielle later. isabelle cant come. sad. tml kboxing with zhiqi, belle, and dan. yay :D

TagsReplies
ISABELLE ; ♥
SJQ ; THANK YOU VERY MUCH ^^
Ht ; okok la :)
Zhiqi ; eenie meenie :D
YULING(: ; yes my dear miss you alot! ♥ happy birthday lovelove! ^^ anyway the song is impossible by shontelle :)
LYNN!<3 ; thanks :)
STALKER ; no! LOVE > HATE = HATE = LOVE :D stalker~
Corliss! ; YES :D hehe camp was okay. thanks for the sweet :D
ISABELLE ; HEY BELLE IM BACK! :D SEE YA TML! ♥
PRISC ; thanks :D
V♥ ; loveyoutoo sweeeety (Y)
XiTong, ; impossible by shontelle :) and alright will link you soon :D
Ht ; thanks :D
HuiShan ; HI! ME BACK ME BACK :D

9 more hours to camp.

2010-03-14T23:01:00.002+08:00

Hey fellow folks, students, ahmas, ahgongs, uncles, aunties, friends, that are reading this (im exaggerating) tml's my camp. quite excited. :b okay. anyway i've decided with isabelle that we'll go to kbox after my camp on wednesday. with danielle maybe :D

okay heres for you isabelle ;

hey retard you BETTER cheer up hor, dont always so emo. me no like no like. must be happy everyday okay. dont let small things let you down. cus the belletardy i know isn't like that. she's strong okay? and everyone loves you, especially God. hehehe. i love you la retard. although we're only closer this year, and i always had this special feeling that we'll be good friends since the start of 2010. hee. let failure not defeat you. love you belle. see you on wednesday okay love! anyway if got anything sms me, i sure reply one okay :) love you!

and i'll miss soooo many ppl.

New term, new me.

2010-03-14T17:56:00.002+08:00

I've made a lil promise to myself. I shall be a reaaaaaaaaally good girl now.
FIRST; I'LL TRY TO STOP ALL MY VULGARITIES.
SECOND; I'LL TRY NOT TO BE RUDE TO MY PARENTS.
THIRD; NEW ME :D

so people, hope to see the new me after the march hols yeah :)

eenie meenie

2010-03-14T16:25:00.003+08:00

love this song :D

Simple denial.

2010-03-14T15:08:00.002+08:00

thank you so much angiesohwanying for going to camp for at least one day with me tho you're not staying with me. i love you ttm xiexiexiexie!

okay i think im a lil excited for camp le. a little bit only :)

Infatuation.

2010-03-14T14:28:00.003+08:00

Hi. i slept at 6.15 yesterday. yay me. okay i woke up at 11am. met stacey at white sands. and guess what wtf. i lost my aunt's ezlink card and i'm so dead. she's soooooo gonna kill me. fml la. tsk. keep losing things one. -.-

okay happy advanced one day birthday to stacey lim! love you ;)

howhowhowhowhow? i dont feeel like going to band camp. but i have to go. anyway. i havent print out the consent form. and im lazy to print it. howhowhow, zzz im so lazy, and i havent even started packing for the camp. argh. fuck. i'll miss that stupid angiesoh man. rlly. heartbreaker. i hate you la. :(

My heart broke upon hearing your last words.

2010-03-14T05:54:00.003+08:00

It's 5 more minutes to 6 now. I cant fall asleep. Perhaps i slept too much in the morning. Tml's sunday. I'm supposed to go to church, problem is, I dont feel like going. I totally lost interest in church, everything. Dont know why. I spent time using computer and playing games, since there's nothing better to do. I regretted. Should've studied instead of playing just now. Oh well. I should go to bed now. I dont even know if i can reach church on time tml. If i'm going then i'll just have a 2hour rest. But confirm cannot wake up one. & tml i'm going to find DanielleChua at Plaza Singapura to see them dance. Hope it'll be a success. Alright. Off to sleep now. It's been so long since I've slept so late other then once when i was doing English. hah. Bye.

Shawty is a eenie meenie minee mo lover.

2010-03-14T01:22:00.000+08:00

hi i changed my blogskin. and its super pinkish i find. lol. okay i had a nice chat with song and he's not gng band camp. sad or what. okay bye.

sounds gangster i'm gangster we'll play this damn prankster. using up this bar we play then we make our getaway.

2010-03-13T23:15:00.003+08:00

im super pro i tell you. i can eat alot and i can sleep alot one leh. ah. er i sleep from 11pm till 1pm this afternoon and after that i ate one-quarter tube of ice cream and 2 small cones of ice cream. then after that i walk walk and continue sleeping from 3pm-7pm. after that wake up ate dinner, and watched tv all the way. and my uncle and aunt still thinks im skinny and force me to eat when im alr super fat okay. woosh. im going to be fat after the hols.

anw angiesoh ah i'll miss you damn alot la okay... why go hongkong during band camp! :(

starting with a beloved hello, and ending with the harsh goodbye.

2010-03-12T23:04:00.003+08:00

Arts night today, im superb tired tho i didn't do anything there, just practising instrument and moving chairs here and there. well. danielle, faye, yeongsoon, song, yulong, ariel, weileong, kenny came. hah.

okay i saw you today again! so shocked that you were behind me all the while. bet you think im stupid cus im crazy-ing in front.

ohyup, i realised im so stupid. bringing my laptop to grandma's house and forgetting to bring my charger, well. how 'smart' am i?

Report booooook came out. hah. remarks aren't that bad. okay bye.

anw wo heart wo de retard belle and wo de buddy niao and wo de puipuilovelove lingling and wo de poooooootlaopo corliss! ^^

:)

2010-03-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

i changed my blogsong, suddenly like this song, tho it's quite old alr. :) SHUOHUANG~

喇舌, 喇舌, 喇舌, want love! 喇舌, 喇舌, 喇舌, ~

Im a goody person.

2010-03-11T18:11:00.001+08:00

Okay. I shall be a good girl now and do my lit holiday assignment since i have band camp for 3 days and im lazy to do after band camp. I shall also be a good girl and try to do maths though i dont know how to do. but............ definitely all wrong, lol pleasez. im not smart at all. let's see. gonna get back reportbook/card tml. i dont worry at all for the results cus im so proud of it. im just afraid that teacher's remarks would be: 'Regina is a very talkative student in class and often daydreams in class. She needs to buck up on her English' lol. perhaps it'll come out like that. hopefully i'll do well for MYE too! it's too early to prepare but i'm preparing alr. call that kiasu or what.

bye lovelies. (:

your face is the one i've been searching for every moment.

2010-03-11T17:44:00.003+08:00

Hi.

Just when i was recovering from my old injury when i fell down during band.....................
i fell down during PE today, again, same spot. exactly on the dot. super painful i swear.

okay tml is arts night and i would wish all band, co members that are performing, GOODLUCK! :D

"I LOVE DANIELLE AND @LADABEAR ! had plenty of fun with them today~ woots. anw we changed seats. I SAT BESIDE DANIELLE AND ISABELLE IS IN FRONT OF DANIELLE. HOORAY!

kthxbai.

if there's a reason why i wouldn't want to go home every night, it'll be you.

2010-03-10T20:09:00.002+08:00

hi! i hypered with corliss, yuling, danielle, isabelle in the hall, hehe i love them~
okay so... i had band today and yup. hahahhaha today was main band. i fell asleep while listening to the songs they played. huntingdon, all these. heeeeeeeeeee. tml gonna polish instrument. yay. :)

i cant wait for arts night, seriously. although im not playing the instrument, i cant wait for it! HAHAHA. :D

IM ALREADY TRYING TO BE A LITTLE BIT EXTRA NICER TO YOU ALR MOM, WHAT THE HELL YOU WANT FROM ME. -.-

i'll live better without you.

2010-03-09T19:19:00.025+08:00

ARTMAZING RACE TODAY! hahaha damn fun :)

P/s: i look constipated in most of the pictures, dont mind me cus i know im ugly HAHAHA.

cant you feel that im pretending?
oh. and i saw you alot of times today! yay me! cute si le!
i love danielle, isabelle, zhiqi! ~

thanks isabelle, really thanks love.

2010-03-08T21:14:00.002+08:00

i cant be bothered to update about yesterday. i dont really wanna say anything bout today as well. ohyeah i quarrelled with my mom again. its all because of ipod touch. anw, i miss the old you mom. seriously. anyway i dont see you being sad over this quarrel. everything you say is correct, everything i say is wrong, happy? -.- anyway thanks to isabelleeeee alot!

Oh well.

2010-03-06T23:00:00.003+08:00

okay seriously get the truth out of it maybe i cant take it anymore maybe i will die thinking about all these fucking family matters or whatever shittyass things that's gonna make me sad. and i cant pretend to be strong anymore, i dont even feel like being happy in front of ppl. i just dont want ppl to worry bout me. argh fuck my life.

i felt happier talking to stalker :D

thankyou yixuan stalker~ i love you!!!! although i just know u this year :D

(Y)

2010-03-06T20:22:00.002+08:00

i shall turn this into a happy post :D

love came my house tday, did project :D
okay after tht went to hub with love and met with corliss and danielle. LOL. okay ate pepperlunch and after that hm went to buy track pants for camp. we four bought the same one. er. went to take neoprint and after tht went to bugis with danielle. LOL go there, also didnt do anything. waste time only. hahaha okay i had fun today :)

i had a 30min talk with kimberleytan on the phone. yay me love her so much. misses~ :)

mom you've really changed alot, i missed the times when you weren't like that. i dont want a home with no love, sometimes i cant even feel any concern from you at all. i miss the old you. the new you sucks. alot. bitch that bastard that changed you.

push yourself.

2010-03-05T16:48:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 200TH POST.

im supersupersuper happy with my results except english la.

English: 12/25.
Maths: 28/35.
Chinese: 36/50.
Science: 33/50.
D&T: 25/40.
History: 19/30.
Literature: 14/20.
Art: 21/30.

YAY ME! I PASSED EVERYTHING................................

except english -.-

let failure not defeat you.

2010-03-05T16:29:00.004+08:00

Hi. didn't went to school. hahaha, okay i miss school. very bored. ate kfc with huishan, yay me. went see doc, doc said bone never crack but sprained my muscle. okay bye.

sparkle a handful of love.

2010-03-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

^ click.

one spark starts the fire

2010-03-04T21:40:00.002+08:00

Chatting with Huishan on msn (:
long time never chat. hehe i can pour all my troubles to her, hopefully :D
loveyou:D

spell loser with hatred.

2010-03-04T19:15:00.008+08:00

hi. my hand hurts very badly. i wanna do pushup but i cant, prolly not gng band tml, so well...
today turned out fine, i wasn't listening much during class, rather talking to danielle bout __ & __ LOL. okay hm. after schl waited for dan finish higher chinese, went to ate kfc and saw huimin's friend, said hi and after that went to dan's house, did some history and used com. most importantly played wii! ^^

OHYA. DURING WALKING BACK TO DAN'S HOUSE. WE TALKED ABOUT MR KHALID AND HIS UNUSUAL HABIT! HAHAHAHAHA SUPER FUNNY. WE L-O-L-ED ALL THE WAY TILL WE REACHED HER HOUSE. LOL!

okay lol. here's something for you,

hahahaha loser you know you suck. pretending to care about others? so what if others dont wanna tell you about things. why do you even need to know them? just mind your own business and fuck off. i had quite enough of you. lol. shouting in class, in chinese class, acting like a teacher's pet. student leader? skirt shorter then ours, lol. what student leader are you. you dont even deserve to be one.

YOU;
i know what you did in the past alrdy and im damn mad. lol. you dont have to PRETEND that you love me alot. mind you. stop hurting my friends and stop treating me as your dog. whenever you're upset you give attitude, you think its fair? lol.

continue pretending and act like you love me, i wont believe you anymore. i'll just continue to give you a attitude of mine, im not a hypocrite, unlike you. i still cant believe you were even my friend once. i shall pretend too (: and pretend that i love you alot alot alot. hahahahhahahaha, i'll pay you back double how much you did to me. what you brought me was only pain&sadness. fuck you.

opps i'll take back my words. im a civilised person and i wont be sad over matters like that, hehehe, but there's one word that can be used to describe a horrible person like you -- ~~Bitch~~LOSER.

to think you actually made my mood bad the past few weeks. i can see thru you. cus you're wearing thin,

HAHAHAHHAHA,

(P.S: the one cancelled and the one not cancelled away are TWO different ppl, with SAME personalities, backstabbing ppl and badmouthing ppl. )

~

2010-03-03T21:38:00.002+08:00

I PASSED MY D&T~~~~~ okay no one failed though :)
hmmmmm. lets see, THE WHOLE CLASS FAILED ART. WE'RE SO PRO RIGHT. :D

okay band today, i fell down when leehui asked us to run around classroom block today. rushing to go home and wanted to overtake salita, then............... kaboom fell down. hurt my hand and leg. and face never spared too! lol. anyway after tht leehui asked me to stop but do 20 updowns. okay lol my hand no strength suddenly lmao.

i saw you today! ^^
i doubt i'll ever know you anyway.

Simplicity is perfect, with a touch of love it'll be wonderful.

2010-03-02T20:54:00.001+08:00

Hi, i've changed my blogskin, although i loved the old blogskin. ;)

2010-03-02T20:25:00.002+08:00

"We’d never know what’s wrong without the pain. Sometimes the right thing and the hardest thing are the same."

(via raindropsonredroses)

The worst thing.

2010-03-02T18:40:00.005+08:00

IN THE END, I FAILED ENGLISH BY FREAKING HALF MARK -'-
- okay whatever who cares.

okay er... hypered in class with C, YL, I, D hehehe especially with I & D in class and C & YL in hall. :D anyway going to spca with corliss and yuling. cant wait to see the cute little animals :D although they're fierce.

OH AND YA. ISABELLE MISTOOKEN A MOUDLY BREAD AS A BREAD WITH PEANUT BUTTER! :D STUPID RETARD! ^^

well i guess i spent the whole day talking to D bout __ & __ LOL.

band was fun :) gonna help out during arts night. AND I GOT MY BAND TEE! ^^
im starting to love band more and more. yay me (Y)
okay bye :D

OH NO WAIT. IM DAMN IRRITATED BY ONE TEACHER TODAY. SALITA LOST HER TIE PIN. AFTER BAND, SALITA, ME, CHENGMUN, KIMBERLY, TZUHAN, GO GENERAL OFFICE, HOPE CAN FIND THE TIE PIN.

Convo:

Salita: Excuse me.
TzuHan: Excuse me.
TzuHan: *thought he dunno english* 有人的东西不见了
*pause for 1 minute*
Me: Excuse me. *shot him dulan face*
TzuHan: 请问...
Teacher: 我不是耳聋hor
TzuHan: 有人的东西不见了
Teacher: 我懂，你可以等一下吗 *give one fucking face*
Me: -'-

fuckright. cheebye.

Motivator, ♥

2010-03-01T18:41:00.001+08:00

I got back my results, i'm quite satisfied. passed all subjects. i was happy until Mr Ng told us that half of the class failed English, and i failed English, haha, as expected. but he said i failed at borderline. oh whatever. i dont want to care anymore. Today was a tiring day, i slept through science lesson when they were going through the paper, suddenly i felt like vommiting, i dont know why eh. lol. okay. after school went to hub with danielle. ate macs and caught 'Dear John' lol. so touching ah. after that, went to her house downstairs, played at the playground. played awhile only. lol.

called dad and told him about my results. once he heard that i failed English. All he said was 'Why you fail? i cannot believe it, why you fail?' when i tried telling him about the rest of my marks, he dont even bother to listen anymore. what do you want from me, i tried my best. what the hell do you want. it's not like i want to fail English on purpose right. I told mom, and at least she didn't scold me. she was happy with my results, why cant you be like the same as her? anyway i think i can get this results is all thanks to my motivator (Y) & maybe danielle? haha. okay thats all. after knowing that i failed English, i dont feel like getting back my paper. and i'm very sure that i failed Art too. But then again, who CARES ABOUT ART. ohya. D&T too. I'll fail. Goodluck to you Regina. i know you did your best.

okay i love corliss & yuling! (:

2010-02-28T22:12:00.003+08:00

27th February 2010

Went to grandma's house with bud.
Talked about __ & __ (corliss&yuling know ah!)
Played badminton for 1 hour.
Cycled for 1 hour.
Ran for 10 minutes?
NYAA -.-
okay er. then ate. continue talking bout __ & __
she went home.
I watched cruel temptation! (:
Slept at 1am.

28 February 2010

woke up at 9.
late for church -.-
cabbed to church, dropped grandma at elias mall.
met claralee, went in hall 10.
met huijuan and yongyue.
slacked during sermon.
fooled around.
went to tampines mall.
ate pretzel! ^^
saw a HUGE elmo! (: CUTE!!
and i saw cameras.
want it sooo badly :(
went back to grandma's house.
cycled for 1 hour again.
smsed stalker!!!!
watched tv and dad came to pass grandma money.
slept for 2 hours -.-
bathed.
dinner.
reached home.

OHYA, i think clique is okok le. (: ANYWAY. friday i talked to corliss about guys zilian. very gross ew. :/ and i sang alot with cutest during church!

Tags Replies

YULING(: ; hehe, i think it's all okay (:
Waylon ; thanks.
L.Chloe ; HAHAHA exams are over. im free le (Y) miss you!
Corliss! ; okay le (:
yixuan ; hi stalker! love my card please! ^^ i'll cheer up! ^^
LYNN!<3 ; you're not irritating la. :) i know you just want to make things better, i understand, anyway it's all over. (: thanks!
Angie ; i learnt from YANJIA DE!
JOANNE ; hi sweetheart! <3 im fine, you? (:
XiTong ; thanks for tagging, chiobu! (:
DANIELLE ; HOHOHOHO CUTE SI LE. CUTER THAN YOURS LEH.
Corliss! ; LOVE!
LYNN!<3 ; i wont be offended! (:
AnGiEEEE ; Thanks love (:

TEO YI XUAN IS LOUSY! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHE. *evil laugh*

IM HAPPY. YOU'RE HAPPY. WE'RE HAPPY FAMILY YAY.

im crapping, am i? okay stomach pain. bye~

Dont pretend to care about me, cause you dont.

2010-02-26T19:50:00.002+08:00

Hi. Band was okay today. Bye. i have nothing to say.

dont expect too much from others, cus they're not you, they wont change for your sake. they're not you, they wont care, they only pretend to. they'll never understand how much you suffered. they wont know how sad are you. they'll never know that what you're just expecting is to just say a hi to you. they'll never think of you when they're having fun. they'll never miss you. they wont listen to what you say. they never loved you once, Regina. please wake up.

If you'd ever knew how i felt, you wouldn't be like that. if you'd ever knew how hurt i felt, you wont be like that. if you'd ever treat me as a good friend, you wont be like that.

ohyesohyes i knew this would happen.

2010-02-25T22:06:00.003+08:00

OFFICIALLY DISCLIQUED ON 25TH FEBRUARY 2010.
~~go our own ways. but we'll be goodfriends forever!~~
can we really be goodfriends? nah i dont think so.

爱只有简单笔画却比想像复杂恨安定爱变化

2010-02-25T20:07:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIMIN GIRLFRIEND!
I LOVE YOU! :D

okay commontests are over................................
after school cabbed to j8 with zhaoyi, yulong, yeongsoon, song, and danielle. lmao ate lunch. yulong treat de. 100 plus leh the bill? LOL. after that went to walkwalk. then went back hub. caught a movie with dan bud. hohoho. percy jackson (Y)

to yuling:
yup our clique changed. it's just like. you're closer to corliss now and corliss is closer to you. and somehow im closer to danielle. lol i used to think that even number in a clique, nobody will feel left out. somehow i was wrong? hahahaa. i think im not even part of our clique now. whenever im with you guys, there's nothing to talk about. i dont like things to be this way, i know you dont want too, do you? anyway. i realised that you and corliss are closer than before and tht's good uh, congrats. it's just that i find myself not in our clique anymore. somehow doing projects with you weren't that fun anymore.... maybe it's me that changed. sorry.

ohya.
DANIELLE IS YELLOW.
CORLISS IS WHITE.
ZHAOYI IS PINK.
REGINA IS PURPLE.
know why? dont tell you!

ohya! percy jackson is so hot! :D

you've changed, mom.

2010-02-24T21:58:00.003+08:00

how we used to be friends that we could talk to each other everyday, mom. since you got yourself a boyfriend, you've been neglecting me every single day. are you sure that you want to spend the rest of your lives with such a guy that could malign your own daughter? you've changed. you didn't use to be the mom i used to love most. ever since you have a boyfriend, we've been quarrelling all day. you claimed i wasn't respecting him cus whenever i see him, i wouldn't call him first but call you first. firstly, he dont even deserve my respect at all. what he does all day was just to watch tv, work, eat, sleep, thats all. have you ever wondered how i felt, how i thought? nope, you didn't. you just continue to be in your small little 'happy' world with him and left me out. you promised me that you wouldn't leave me alone. and that no matter where you go you'll bring me along. now, you cant even bother to listen to what i say. whenever i try to explain things to you, he'll always try to add oil and say bad things about me in front of you. everytime i try to talk to you, he'll definitely butt in and interupt our conversation. i remembered those times at night were the times i really enjoyed most as you would tell me about your childhood and how's your work now. every night i would also confide you into whatever sad things that happened during school. you would always lend me a shoulder and give me a pat on my forehead telling me everything's fine. what about now. saying 'im tired' is all you could gave me. yes, im tired too. im tired of having to wake up every single morning, and im tired of even trying to go to school and start pretending, showing im happy, when inside me, im not happy at all. im not trying to deprive your rights of finding your own happiness. yes, he does treat you good. but have you ever thought about me? mom. i miss the old you. the old you would never treat me like that. the old you would always encourage me to move on with life. the old you would love me like the deep ocean. what about now?

clique, im sorry if i neglected you sometimes. im sorry.

well, tomorrow's gonna be a better day. but with science and art? hah. no way. bye.

Somehow..

2010-02-24T19:18:00.002+08:00

okay alright okay d&t sucks to the core i'll prepare to fail d&t cus argh it suck it suck it suck. okay lit was fine. think i can pass. lol. okay science and art tml i'll prepare to fail them.

after school went to mosburger to study with bud and lol we laughed at ppl's hair lolol. okay la. super funny. :D

why isn't our clique the same like before?
why are we like drifting apart?
i really hope our clique can be like the past.
but. somehow. some things changed us.
i dont know what happened.
i started to feel left out by you guys.
i dont know if you guys feel that way..
it's just that sometimes i feel like our clique is not a clique anymore.

Sad love story.

2010-02-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

Ripped while bloghopping @O-nelastdance

"What can I say about a girl I loved since I was ten….. that I love the way she laughs at me when I commit mistakes, the way she fusses over silly things and even the way she cries over some sad silly late night show? Somehow, I wished I could have told her that I love her but now there’s no hope in doing so. For now, it’s rather too late…too late for me to do so.

She was my best friend and I have known her since we were small. She knew all my secrets, which reveals my feelings for her, that I love her not only because she’s pretty and smart but also the way she laughs at everything and the way she sees life and love.

I could still remember the first time we met, I was five years old then. It was one windy afternoon having no one to play with except for my best friend, Troy. He and his family just moved out to transfer at a neighboring state because his father got promoted. And so I climbed up our tree house, I saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a family station wagon following it. It stopped in front of the house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when out came the loveliest girl I’ve seen. She was four years old that time but then even at an early age she was a beauty. She had long curly hair, which reached almost to her waist. She had fair complexion and eyes which could make a man lose his heart into them. I continued to watch her when suddenly she looked up and saw me watching them in the tree house window. I was about to duck when she smiled and waved her hand. I waved back then watched in amazement as I saw her running towards the tree house. So I went to the edge of the ladder and said, “Would you like to come up?” she answered, “May I?” So I help her climb up and when she reached the top she then turned to me and said, “By the way, my name’s Sam, what’s yours?” I answered, ” My name is Christopher but then you can call me Chris.” She smiled and said, ” Well i like your name. Hey your tree house’s neat!” then I replied, ” Thanks! troy and I made this. this used to be our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball and go biking together. He was my best friend and I kind of miss him you know.” She smiled and said “I’m here now, we could do things you do with troy and I could be your new best friend too. i never had a boy for a friend before so it could be exciting to have
one. I could learn how to play ball and I have my bicycle so we could go biking together. Now how does that sound to you?” I smiled and said, “Well that sounds good enough.” Then she held her hand and said, “It’s a deal then!” So that’s how it started.

So we became best friends and it was kind of strange at first for she was a girl and there are things which I was little bit hesitant to indulge her like catching frogs, swimming in the lake and climbing trees, but then she tried and did everything just to please me. There was even a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped knee. I could still remember the time when she hit the window of our neighbor when we were playing baseball and it was i who talked to Mr. Chambers and promised to pay for the damage, which meant having to loose a weeks’s allowance. I remembered the time when I fell off the tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten because Sam was near to tears when she saw the helpless kitten trapped in a branch. I even fought with the tough guy when they teased Sam and made her cry and I ended up having a black eye and a bruised cheek. I remember Sam crying as she placed an ice bag over the damaged eye and later gave it a get-well kiss. I did everything to please her and gave everything her little heart desires.

The lake was our favorite hang out. We had our Saturday swim routine. We would pack food and later eat them under the big oak tree. There was a special branch in which the two of us could sit together and tell each other’s dreams. She dreams of being a Ballerina and she knows my dream of becoming a doctor. She never laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they were quite impossible. it made me like her even more.

As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were slowly changing. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case. But when I started thinking about her at night, dreaming of her and having the feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was something
different, something that made me feel strange, but then it was exhilarating feeling. It made me feel so alive. Whenever our hands touch, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once when we were at the lake having our Saturday swim routine and as I carried her towards the
water edge, I had the feeling of not wanting to let go. I just wanted that moment to continue hoping it would never end. I then realized I was slowly falling in love with my best friend.

Many times I tried to deny the feeling for I was scared to imagine what would happen if ever I’d try to tell her how I feel about her. I was scared because she might think that I’m taking advantage of her and our friendship. I was afraid of losing her so I just kept my feeling hidden.

We reached the age of fifteen and I noticed that Sam grew lovelier each day. How my heart aches wherever I see boys glance her way. I want to punch their noses as I watch them talking to her giving compliments, flowers and chocolates. There were times when I watch her at a distance mixed feelings of anger and hurt because it hurts so much to know that there were so many things I wanted to tell her but then I could not do so. There were so many presents which I long to give her but then I could not for she might see me only as a friend. I was also scared of letting her know how I feel about her as much as losing her.

Then one day, I just learned from a friend that she already had a boyfriend. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was just a rumor. Her boyfriend was Mark, a popular senior, who was the heartthrob of the campus. She, being the cheerleader was close to the basketball team which
Mark was the captain. When I saw them walking together at the parking lot that afternoon, I watched her with my heart slowly breaking into pieces. I saw her wave at me but I just pretended not to see her for I was scared that she might see in my eyes the pain I’m feeling inside because of seeing her with another guy.

Those days that followed where the saddest days of my life. How my heart aches when I see her walk by me with him at her side. every time we meet in hallways and I see him around her, there’s a feeling inside me that makes me want to grab her away from him. How it hurts to see the girl I long possess was now owned by somebody else. That special smile I long for her to cast on me was now casted on him as she passes by me she doesnt know that i whispher the words “God how I love you.”

Then one faithful day they broke up. She came too me that evening crying on my shoulder. They had a big fight and it ended up to their break up. Mixed feelings were scaring me inside. I was happy because she was free and maybe i would have the chance of telling her my true feelings for her but then I was feeling so bad because she is crying her heart out just for him. At that time, I was not quite sure of what I wanted to do.

So we found ourselves doing what we did in old days with our saturday swim routine, spending time in our tree house. we still enjoyed doing childish pranks for we still are both young at heart. So many chances I had for me to confess my feelings for her but still I couldn’t bring myself to her for I was scared of losing her once more. I once lost her, now I could not bear of losing her again by telling her I love her. So I just kept my feelings even if it was bursting to be expressed from my aching heart.

It was a week from our JS Prom, we were seated at the branch of an oak tree drying ourselves after our afternoon swim when she said, “I was wondering Chris if you would like to be my partner?” It just got out of my wits for it was like a dream I never thought would happen. It took me awhile to answer her, “I thought there are so many boys who would die for you to be their partner?” So she turned away and quietly said, “Well i just thought I would like to spend that night with my best friend.” Then she continued in a whisper I could barely hear, “Don’t you want to die just like them to be my partner Chris?” I was too stunned to speak for it came close for me to blurt my feelings for her. We we’re silent for a while until I finally whispered, “I would be happy to be your partner Sam.” The she smiled and suddenly kissed my cheek. I could hardly contain the joy i felt that time. I saw her turned red and bowed her head. Suddenly she stood up and run towards the water saying, “Last one to reach the water treats to sundae fudge!” I ran slowed up so that i would lose which meant having to have her with me for another three hours or more.

Our Prom night came. I bought a new tuxedo and poured almost the entire bottle of perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Sam’s mother greeted me and I went to sit in the living room waiting for her to come down. I was talking to her father when I heard her say, “How do I look?” I look up and saw her lovelier than ever in a strapless white dress with her hair flowing around her face. I stood up and opened my mouth but found out I could not find my
voice. Then I got her hand shakily fastened the corsage around her wrist and whispered, “To the loveliest girl in the whole world.” She then asked, ” Is that true?” I nodded and she smiled and I smiled back then I turned to open the door for her.

When we arrived at the gymnasium we hardly recognized our classmates. Gone were the jeans and T-shirts. They were replaced with tuxedos and gowns. Then I held out her hand bowed and said ,” Would you give me the honor of your first dance?” She laughed and curtseyed. Then I led her to the dance floor. It was like a dream coming true, a moment of enchantment. I was there dancing with the only girl I ever loved. She was smiling up to me, as we were slowly moving in a smooth gliding motion. I found myself lost as I stared down to her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair were like waves enhancing her beautiful face. There were so many things I wanted to tell her that moment. I wanted to tell that she was the most beautiful girl that night. I wanted to tell her that she would always be the beacon of light in my darkness, but what I wanted to tell her the most was that I love her. I drew up all my courage and bent to whisper it in her ear but suddenly the music stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to telling her, but still haven’t done it.

We walked towards the table and found ourselves surrounded by friends. I asked her if she wanted a drink, she nodded and so I went to get one. It took me a long time to get one and when I returned to our table, she was gone. I asked her friend, katie, where she was but she told me that she doesn’t know. So I went and search for her. As I was searching for her, I reached the garden. There I saw two silhoutte figures outlined by the moon’s silvery light. They were so close to each other. i could never describe the feeling I had when I recognized the white dress Sam was wearing that night. I just turned and left the gymnasium.

Since that night, I avoided her. Many times she tried talking to me but I never gave her the chance to do so. I was afraid to hear her say that she loves Mark and not me. I would rather have left in ignorance of her true feelings for me than to hear from those dreaded words and feel my hope crush and my heart break. I didn’t return her calls. I would not see her if she comes into our house. in the hallways, as she approaches i would go to another direction. It also hurts to do those things but then I thought that was the best way to forget her. Those months were tormenting but still I kept my pride.

The day of our graduation came. I was planning to take up medicine at a neighboring state and was to move out the next day. As the program ended, she approached me and handed me a rose. As she stared at me. there was something in her eyes I couldn’t describe. There was sadness in them and when she smiled it wasn’t the same smile she had. I wanted to hug her at that moment, tell her that I love her but then she turned and walked away from me.

So I moved out the next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted at the university. I concentrated with my studies but still I think of her at night. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tried hard not to think of her but still I could not stop myself from loving her. Each achievement I have was done for her. I thought that if I will be successful one day, I would be able to tell her that I love her and by that time, I’m worthy of having her.

It was a year after our graduation when I decided to return home and see her again. I thought a year is too much for me not to see her and during the past year I felt like a person lost in the desert and only the sight of her could quench the thirst I have inside. As I got off the plane,
I went home directly, desperate to get to her house desperate to see her, to hug her. Then I would tell her that I missed her and that I have loved her for a long time. This time I am determined to let her know my true feelings for her and I could not contain anymore the love I have for her.

I reached their house, I saw her older sister and I approached her. I smiled at her but I noticed she didn’t smile back. I was confused for she used to be a cheerful lasy just like my dear Sam. I then asked,” Hi Jen! I guess you’re suprised why I’m here. Well I just want to visit you and I was also hoping to see Sam. I kind of miss her you know. Ummm………bby the way have you seen her?” All I saw was sadness in her eyes as she replied quietly, “Come follow me.”

I was confused with the way she’s acting but still i followed her. As we were walking, I was trying to indulge her in a conversation but just answered my questiond briefly. Then I realized that she was leading me to the direction of the lake. It was still the same as I left it, with the same oak tree Sam and I used to climb up. I smiled upon remembering the kiss Sam gave me when I agreed to be her partner. It’s been one of the happiest days in my life and I realized that I missed Sam more than I thought. The Jen stopped walking and pointed to the tree. She then
whispered, “There’s Sam.”

I looked at where she was pointing and saw a newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I ever loved. I could not believe at what I saw and desperately tried convincing myself that this is all just a nightmare and I would soon wake up.

I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her eyes searching for explanations and slowly started saying,” It has been a week since she died. She died of Leukemia, but eventhough she was sick, she never stopped thinking about you. It was even your name she uttered before she died. She asked us to bury her here for she always regard this place as a place of LOVE. She said that this is where she had spent the happiest days and that was when she was with you. by the way, she also asked me to give you this.” She handed me a parcel and with that she left.

I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it contained the dried orchid from the corsage I gave her for our prom. Then at the bottom I saw a letter. It was dated las month. I opened it with shaking hands and started reading……..

******************************

I know by this time you read this letter I’m gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very lucky and thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I would also like you to know that I had left something inside, something I kept from you all these years. I love you Chris, not in a
friendly way but as one who would feel like spending the rest of my life with. I have always loved you even from the start. I guess it just bloomed each day that’s why the happiest days of my life was when you were by my side. You just don’t know how I dreamed of you at night and wake up in the morning and dream no more for you are with me. When you are away, I can’t stop crying because I’m afraid to think that you are with another girl. I just can’t bear to see you with another girl. I just want you all to myself. I may sound selfish but that’s how I feel. Each time you held me close to you was like a dream coming true for to be close to you and feel your heart beating next to mine was heaven. So many things I did so that you will learn to love me but I NEVER saw a hint. I did everything to please you because I love you so much that I even tried to full myself that you’re in love with me too. So many nights I’ve cried when I think of myself unloved by you. Well you might think that what I’m sayin are lies but, I tell you, my heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling a lie to the one I love.

I know you might be thinking of Mark but I just did that to make you jealous, to make you see me as a young woman, capable of loving and not as the little girl you used to play with. Sometimes I imagined that you were jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign that you feel something for me too. When Mark and I broke up and I came crying, I just did that to know how you would react and with that I’ll know that you love me too. But I failed for you didn’t give me any clue. when our prom night came, you just don’t know how happy I was when you handed me the corsage and saying that I was the loveliest girl in the whole world. While we were dancing, I wanted so desperately to hear you say that you love me too but you NEVER did. When Mark came and pleaded me to give him a second chance, I was scared that you might see us talking. I didn’t want you to get the wrong impression so i told him we would talk in the garden. There I explained to him that it’s you whom I really love. What happened next was that I found you missing and later learned that you were searching for me, I just concluded that you saw us together. The next day, I tried to explain but then you never gave me a chance to do so. you continuously avoided me and never knew how much pain I’ve experienced that time. I felt the world crushing on me. In our Graduation day, when I approached you, I wanted to tell you how much I love you but I decided that I just couldn’t do it. I could not bear to hear that
all you feel for me is just brotherly hand of love. For I want you to love me as a woman and not as a girl or playmate. So I just turned away and left.

Now that saying I LOVE YOU might be too late, still I want you to know that I will always love you and my heart has always been and will be yours alone.

P.S.

Think of me sometimes…. and always remember that loving you was the best thing that ever happened in my life.

******************************

I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter. I wanted to shout out to let her know that I love her, if not as much, but more than she did for me. I love her more than anything in this world. I knelt touching the soil of her grave and rain started to fall. I continued crying softly and whispered, “Oh God, send my love to heaven.” "

/Edited:

DANIELLE CHUA IS CRAZY HEHEHEHEHE. ^^ REMEMBER AH REMEMBER AH REMEMBER AH. DS! & __ ^^

White lies.

2010-02-23T20:15:00.002+08:00

okay pictures uploaded at facebook already (:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2028673&id=1220273236&l=b2b53bf533
tomorrow's another torture, d&t, wish me luck.
and science's just the day after tomorrow.

):

The world has changed.

2010-02-23T17:36:00.002+08:00

MATHS KILLED ME.

LOL. i've been studying algebra like one mad ass since yesterday and in the end. THERE ARE ONLY 2 QUESTIONS ON ALGEBRA. THE REST ARE ON PROPORTION. YES GOD WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME :( hehe nvm i got a feeling i'll pass. chinese i dunno le. :/

anyway saw someone today with budbud, happyhappyhappy ^^
iloveyou! :D

LOL.

2010-02-22T21:09:00.003+08:00

ohya. here's a conversation between me and mom.

Me: mummy 如果我变 lesbian 怎么办？
Mom: 我就是怕你变lesbian lor. eh 你跟那个danielle什么关系啊，为什么她一直来我们家？
Me: 好朋友拉废话，i wont become lesbian de la. joking only.
Mom: orh. good. heng.
Me: LOL if i become lesbian, i wont tell you about ___ is cute le ma. LOL.
Mom：ya hor. hehehe.

stupid convo between me and my mom. i cant believe she's scared of me being a lesbian -___-

PTL PTL PTL.

2010-02-22T19:59:00.003+08:00

okay lmao history was not as tough as i expected. im quite confident that i'll pass. as for english? goodgame lmao. confirm fail. i dont even understand what the hell the passage was talking. lol.

went to kfc to study with isa, zhiqi, dan. at least studied a little but no confidence though. sigh. factorisation is killing me. -.-

ohya did i mention that yulaoshi spoke english today?
lol she was like.

YuLaoShi: You steeel have ah 2 minutes left. Pl-ease check your answer sikript and check that you have write your name and register number.

LOL.

oh. took some pictures, (: will post after cts, hopefully blogger doesn't cockup. hehe. alright. im quite certain that i'll fail both my maths and chinese tml, cmi cmi cmi.

bye.

Wo de bud shi awesome de.

2010-02-21T20:17:00.002+08:00

Hi, went to study with bud, H, J today @ Bishan Library. alright managed to get some history in my mind. and. im still certain i'm gonna fail history because there's so much to memorize, and i only memorized a little. cmi.

anyway bud came my house. LOL eh actually the _____ same birthday as her! SO QIAO RIGHT LOL. we kept laughing for dont know what. insane?

okay calling bud later on (:
bye, jiayou for CTs!

It's always like that.

2010-02-21T12:48:00.001+08:00

Ya. like what Jingyi said, i kind of drifted away from God. Yes i know he loves us and everything but somehow i cant feel it. Didn't went to church today cus all never go -.-
going out to study with danielle and maybe huishan? dunno lol. i think i kindof drifted away with churchfriends too. seldom talk to them now. sigh. i dont want things to be like that.

Everything's over (:

2010-02-21T01:19:00.002+08:00

Love or Infatuation?

Haha hihi. i spent the whole morning/afternoon @ Huishan's house. managed to studied a little and get into my head a little. around 4, went to J8 with Jolin & Bud to buy Jo's itouch. yay. itouch is so freaking cool ^^ okay well, bud came. talked alot. hahaha we have alot of things to talk. dont know why :b after that. studied, and she left at 10, sadly she couldn't go to church with me tml. Jingyi's not going ): whose going?
okay. hehe bud and i share a secret! :b
copying notes to itouch now. :)

Today was a fairytale.

2010-02-20T14:28:00.001+08:00

You dont have to worry. I'll prevent myself from believing you again. I had enough of you. Of all your nonsense. It's enough, double-faced freak. I'll stop believing you. But I'll still continue to be nice to you, because thats what God want me to do.

Start pretending, bitch.

No i never told you, i just held it in.

2010-02-20T09:27:00.000+08:00

i bought my itouch yesterday! happy like shit!
off to studying later (:

innocence is brilliant.

2010-02-19T17:27:00.003+08:00

Nothing much to say today. & i kicked zhaoyi's leg accidentally when i wanted to hit yeongsoon's. sorry zhaoyi! :( Finished band very early today. went opposite to buy food with kimberly, chengmun, salita, tzuhan, and peiyi. love them! :)

everyone changes, i know. but you didn't have to change so much, do you?
or maybe perhaps from the start i dont even understand you, thats why i'll keep thinking that you're a good friend, a good person. you were like this the past too. and i still forgave you. why? because i dont want to let this small thing affect our friendship. but. what you're doing now really hurts me. when you're down, you can just tell me and i'll definitely cheer you up. but what you're doing now is giving me attitude when you're down. what do you expect from me? i'm not you, i cant control what you think, what you want to do. but i'm me. i know i cant tolerate all these from you right now. sometimes i think you're just faking all the while. you're good to me now, yes i know. but you dont have to pretend anymore. just come up to me and say i hate you, who cares? if it makes you feels better by all means. what i dont understand is. why are you a double-sided freak? you treat others so so so nice and to me? i'm not your slave nor your dog. i can tolerate once but not twice. first you betrayed me in the past, i forgave you. after you betrayed me again, i still forgave you. i even read what you said on your blog. you said so mean stuffs to me and i still forgave you. what you expect me to do. i've already been very nice to you. i dont need to suffer all these you know. it's not part of my job. you treat others so nice, you didn't even think of how i feel. and ya you just cared about those friends. now, you've already got my closest friend in class, i wont know one day when you'll just take all my friends away. we're all pretending, especially you.

how old are we already. im fourteen you're fourteen. why are we still quarrelling over these problems?

ohya. this post. you know who you are. if you think it's you, it's you.

Ignorance is bliss.

2010-02-18T18:53:00.002+08:00

i dont need you to bitch about my flaws cos i know them better than you.

Tired.

2010-02-17T20:17:00.000+08:00

Ha. Back from band. crapping with isabellechia on msn now. ^^ I LOVE ISAAAAAA~

(N)

2010-02-16T19:42:00.001+08:00

I hope nothing bad's gonna happen tomorrow. God bless.
Bud came my house. lol we laughed alot when we did the ce project. it's like so superb funny. ^^ anyway did some maths. thanks to her i understand more le. yay. okay. thats all. im really afraid something bad's going to happen tomorrow. i dont want to face anyone la. bye.

Great old times of 1Diligent.

2010-02-16T15:08:00.003+08:00

Look at the difference - from 1D to 2D. everyone changed.

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=30508475&l=ee5e40e724&id=1220273236 (1D)
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2028673&id=1220273236&l=b2b53bf533 (2D)

We changed so much.